yeah I don't know what day it is now...

Wow guys, sorry I haven’t updated in quite a while! To say things have been really busy would be a huge understatement! Anyways, obviously we have arrived here in South Africa safe and sound and we have been here for three weeks now. It definitely has been different than I expected but God has used it for good. We have had a pretty busy schedule which I definitely didn’t expect, I thought it was going to be spirit led the whole time. God really has grown me through this, I have been failing time and time again when it comes to having a good attitude, not being lazy, being short with team members, and not submitting to authority. Yet by God’s grace it has turned into something good and beautiful. Everyone on my team was at a similar tough spot, letting Satan have foot holds in our lives with the little things that have been causing disunity among us. The other day I was talking to my friend Rachael and we were both sharing our frustration about everything that had been happening with our team and the sadness it brought us. We prayed and decided that we needed to get the whole team together without the leaders and just find out what everyone else was feeling and where they were coming from. At first it started out with disagreement but then apologies were made and then we decided to talk about our highs and lows of the trip so far. This was so good because it gave us more perspective of each others hearts. We then decided to go around and have everyone say something affirming about that person, this turned out way better than I expected! After yesterday I felt we had taken a huge step in the right direction but we weren’t all the way there yet. Then this morning there was a huge lightning and thunder storm which changed our plans for the morning to a much needed time of worship and intercession. God started breaking us and the tears started flowing, we asked God for forgiveness for what we had been doing on this outreach and what we were making it. Then we started apologizing to one another and asking for forgiveness, and you could feel the disunity dissolving among us. Only God can turn such a horrible, ugly situation into something beautiful and new. I am so thankful this is the God I serve and who loves me no matter how many times I fail, and no matter how many times I reject him, he never stops fighting for me. Yes we have done great things for people, we have fed the poor, prayed for the sick, played with neglected children on this outreach but it means nothing without love, and we weren’t being loving to one another. It is all about the condition of your heart, that is what God looks at, God do all these things on his own, he doesn’t need us, what he cares about, what he wants is our hearts! Please pray for our team that we would be quick to forgive one another and love each other and consider one another better than ourselves. We have had major break through today but I know that Satan is going to try to get in here as fast as he can and tear us apart. Thank you guys for all your support, you really don’t know the immense difference it’s making!